Got a smile shining like gold, but that smile wasn’t yours.

Sometimes life throws you little ‘movie moments’ – the setting is perfect and you know which song would be playing in the background if it were a movie scene – but you, the lead, are either alone or with the wrong person. 

I felt this the other day when the guy I was partnered up with for this NUSSU event pointed out how pretty the night sky looked. It was beautiful, and the light breeze only served to make it all the more romantic, but all I thought was : how nice it would be to look at the stars with the right person. 

In my defense, I only signed up for the event because my dear friend convinced me to and enticed me with the prospect of getting…A FREE TEDDY! It wasn’t as bad as I thought. People were rather nice – it wasn’t like we were all judging each other as losers who couldn’t get dates on V Day (or were we?). I didn’t hit it off with anyone. Then again there were only 4 guys in the random group they assigned me to, so I suppose instant chemistry would have been too much to ask for. 

Am I picky? I don’t really think so. My friend can find quite a lot of people ‘with potential’ and talk to them easily, but I just can’t. Sometimes people are just plain boring, or they don’t get your references and attempts at humour at all. 

While doing research for my love mod presentation, I came across this paragraph in a soci textbook which talked about how love can actually sort of be predicted and how proximity is a determining factor. It’s pretty true – most people meet their other halves in work or at school. Movie-worthy meet-cutes are few and far between. I keep telling myself that maybe I’m in the wrong place, but I don’t know that for sure. 

Two of my friends left our Lonely Hearts Club soon after V Day last year, and within months of each other. It was unexpected and I took some time to adjust to the fact that my friends were attached, but eventually it stopped mattering. When I finally saw their guys in the flesh, I felt as though maybe this was the role I was meant to play : the weird best friend who is there to provide comic relief. You know, like in the movies : 

Boyfriend of lead  girl: And THAT is why she is still single. 

Lead girl: Don’t be so mean! Sure, she’s a little ….quirky, but she’s a nice person, okay?

Bf : As long as she isn’t going to get in the way of our personal time…  (smirks and grabs lead by waist)

Lead girl squeals as Bf starts tickling her. Weird best friend bursts in. 

WBF : HEY GUYS – oh sorry, am I interrupting something? 

Bf grits his teeth and shoots Lead girl a look. Lead girl shakes her head. 

Just gonna be like that awkward guy back there…

Okay I’ve been watching way too many movies. But you get the point. 

There’s a reason for everything…and maybe the happy ending has been written for me, but it’ll only happen at some point in the distant future. I can only hope that the casting is perfect …but it should be. It’s my movie and I’m the lead.

It wasn’t a sign. It was coincidence.

You make millions of decisions that mean nothing, and then one day you decide to order takeout and it changes your life.

I’ve always liked that line from Sleepless in Seattle…it’s kind of how I guess the best things happen…like they’re meant to be. I don’t know, maybe everything in our lives is random – maybe there’s no meaning. Some people credit God, some Fate, and some just shrug their shoulders and figure they got lucky somehow.

Well because of the CEP Dialogue Session in the morning (I talked to someone important from MINDEF and had no idea who) , I didn’t eat a proper lunch, which I would have if I’d been tutoring Aadithya.

So I went to Macs to get a cup of corn, and almost left the queue because they were taking a while, but decided to stay since I was still early for the PUSEM meeting.

So I got my corn and wanted to take the staircase leading to Koufu to go up the hill, but there was construction, forcing me to take the back route, which I never ever take.

So as I walked down the stairs, Guy passed by talking about looking for someplace, but I didn’t think much of it. Saw someone whom I suspected was Weilun up ahead and thought to myself, ‘is that Weilun? Should I say hi? hm but what if it isn’t, that would be embarrassing.’ Then Weilun turned and headed towards FC4 so I waved. Yeah it was him.

Anyway, so Guy was just slightly ahead of me, and he paused. For one second I wondered if I ought to ask if he needed help, but decided that I wasn’t going to be a kind Samaritan today and turned the other way, ready to walk up.

Well he stopped me and told me he was lost, so I was like, oh, where are you planning to go?

& he said the Stadium. For a minute I was confused and almost pointed the wrong way, but then I remembered how to get there. On hindsight, I actually took him on a longer route I think. Oh well.

So I tried to explain, but he seemed really confused, and I was early, so I offered to walk him there. Quite interesting, the things you can find out in the span of just a short walk. Not much, but enough.

Right now his face is slightly fuzzy already- & I doubt he’ll remember my name, or that this even happened. Still, being a girl who grew up on a diet of Hollywood romcoms and dramas, yes, I will remember it as a potentially good meet-cute. I have enough info to stalk I suppose but I think I’ll spare him (& myself) – probably pointless.

ScarJo and Bradley Cooper’s meet-cute in He’s Just Not That Into You – one of the nicest ones I’ve seen 😀

Well that’s that I guess.

Oh I also thought about how funny it was that I could know of someone for years and only end up being their friend a long time after I’d first heard of/seen them, and it’s especially ironic when I actually thought I’d never get to be friends with them.

Ah life.